Literal Trinket #7

Why is it that I finally feel the confidence to tell the ex-boyfriend that I am ok to be at the same get- togethers, but right after I type it I start to cry? That doesn't seem right. I hope the sudden outpouring of tears is my way of healing from the break-up. But I think the tears are coming from the good memories that I no longer get to live. And that could take more time to accept as past. That's what I want more than anything-the ability to live in the moment. I'm constantly thinking ahead or behind.  When you do that, what is the point of living your life? All the good stuff is in the present. Someone also once told me, "If you don't expect things, you won't be disappointed." That sounds really simple, but it's so hard to do. I am constantly expecting things from situations. I am constantly "what-ifing" the future when I should be putting all my energy into the present. Deal with what's happening now. Make good decisions concerning the now. The future is the future for a reason. There are also many things I can't control. I can't control what people will do. I can only control myself and build my life. And I think that calls for a Namaste.