Literal Trinket #3

Where do you get the strength to pick yourself up from a break-up? I feel like I was just dropped off in the middle of nowhere and I don’t remember my name or where to go. My life came to a screeching halt in a matter of seconds. Now I sit 180 degrees backwards in some sort of limbo.

 Maybe it’s just too soon to do anything but feel. But it just feels so horrible. I feel hollow inside. I automatically begin thinking I’m unlovable. I no longer have a large bond and impact on one person. I am just me-party of one. It doesn’t matter that others love me. Why do my feelings regarding my self worth change just because I am a single person.  Nobody died. There are still people there that have always been there for me. And yet, I just feel like curling up in the fetal position and hoping the feelings go away. I also randomly ask myself, “Is this real life?” My life has lost some of its purpose. What do I do to make my purpose whole again? What do I do to feel content. Not happy. Just straight contentment. I mean can I get a yoga retreat to fall from the sky? Can I talk to Buddha or just  be hyperfocused on something random? Nope. Patience, as usual, seems to be the key. Right when you feel you are going to explode with sadness, a little something happens to move you a little closer to contentment, purpose, zen. 

TRINKET #4

              BCBG Max Azria Norelia Red Dress

TRINKET #3

    Iron and Crystal Floor Lamp, RESTORATION HARDWARE, $995

TRINKET #2

TORY BURCH, Sera Earring, $95

Luxury X-mas Trinket List



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1. gorgeous bed  2. tufted velvet couch 3. Patagonia short puffer jacket 4. Mercedes G-Wagon 5. Tiffany bow necklace 6. a hot dress for New Year's Eve 7. Coach ultraviolet anything 8. a ginormous pair of Dior sunnies 6. a sexy scented candle 7. Bvlagari Mon Jasmin Noir perfume 8. monogrammed necklace



Literal Trinket #2

You know that stage of your life when you feel like just because you slept with someone that it should mean something. Before you realize that it could have the potential to mean nothing. Especially if its a one night stand or you barely know the person. I feel like this stage doesn't last for very long. Probably because you did sleep with someone and felt that that should warrant some sort of tie to that person. You then expected him to somehow get your number from a mutual friend and reach out to you. That didn't happen and you then went through a short whirlwind of emotions that ended with bitterness. Especially after seeing him out in a social setting where he seemed apathetic and perfectly unmoved by your presence. Then after multiple experiences similar to this one your feelings faded to an acceptance of the male specimen. That's just how they are, and that's just how we are. A much better way to feel than angry. It's like one more thing that made life more adult. How could someone do "that" with you, and have no feelings or likeness for you? This was not the fairytale you plotted out in your mind. You felt embarrased about your habit of plotting out a life with someone you barely know. I suppose it's that innocent hopefullness.

TRINKET #1

Anthropologie, $78, modern day ice qeen





Literal Trinket #1

10/27/12 10:30 am

I wake up Saturday morning to an empty wine bottle sitting on my kitchen counter. I bet twenty-somethings everywhere have experienced the exact same thing today. We are a cult-us twenty-something girls. There is something very New York City downtown vibish about hanging out with wine in hand on Friday after work. For me its champagne, but that’s just me and my love for carbonation. And what is the vibe that champagne brings about? Luxury? Upper East Side? LA? High-class mistress? Penthouse resident? Well the champagne that I drink is cheaper than wine, but it’s still bubbly and pretty in my glass. The point is, I very much enjoy this point in my life. You go to a weekly beer tasting, you make dinner with your boyfriend or friends, you go to bars in a calmer corner of town- in fact everything is just calmer. How do we suddenly evolve into this era of our lives? When I look back I guess I’ve been in the same post-college stage for a while, but I’m finally comfortable in it. That’s the difference. I finally embraced being an adult, I guess. Aging has been good for me. I’m still not quite satisfied with being ordinary; not making any mark on the world. A voice in my head still says, “Your chance will come. One day all your creative thoughts will make sense in a masterpiece of some sort.”  But I’m now, at the age of 26,  much more okay with being an ordinary being most of the time.